The following article was written by
Dotty W., a retired airline pilot, and was published in the Fall 2002
issue of the newsletter of The International Society of Women Airline
Pilots. We reprint it here in its entirety.
Alcohol and pilots.
Not a pretty picture. And we've gotten a lot of publicity recently
around this issue: America West pilots, Atlantic Southeast pilot,
Mesa. The old myth of the pilot swaggering out to an airplane after
partying just isn't real, but there is a problem. Even now, some hang
on to the idea that alcoholism is a social disorder or that it's caused by
mental immaturity. While it affects at least 10% of the general
population, crossing social, economic and racial lines, people still think
that a drinker can just put down the bottle if he/she really wants to.
It's not that easy. Alcoholism is a disease. Even the AMA
finally came out with that fact way back in 1956. "The alcoholic's
enzymes, hormones, genes and brain chemistry work together to create his
abnormal and unfortunate reaction to alcohol." (Under the Influence,
Dr. James R. Milam and Katherine Ketcham, p. 35).
Back in 1972 a brave pilot in recovery spoke to the
ALPA Board of Directors. Up to that time, pilots simply were
terminated if they had a problem with alcohol. Some airlines insisted
that they absolutely had no alcoholic pilots, and if one perchance were
found, he would be fired immediately. This brave soul was
speaking about the need to keep pilots' jobs after they were in recovery.
In 1974 HIMS (Human Intervention and Motivation Study) was funded by a grant
to ALPA from the National Institute of Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism.
HIMS training sessions began in March 1975 and, in the beginning, the target
airlines were Continental, Frontier and Braniff. And finally in 1976,
with approval of the General Service Board of Alcoholics Anonymous in New
York City, a meeting in AA for pilots only was born. They
called it Birds of a Feather.
What is this all about and why is it in our ISA
publication? Since we're a bunch of female pilots here, I
thought you souls would enjoy this part. For a pilot with an airline,
the process of returning to the cockpit after being busted for drinking is a
long and arduous one. Perhaps you know of a fellow pilot who's gone
through this. She may keep this completely to herself; others,
however, may feel no need to hide the fact of their recovery. They finally
figure it out: everyone else knew they were drinking too much
anyway--although while their drinking's going on, they are sure they've been
hiding it well enough and that no one knows. Ah, that's the thinking
of the true alcoholic. But someone found out and they were intervened,
caught, stuffed into a treatment program and eventually popped out again to
face the world without alcohol. Some of us walk into a recovery
program under our own steam having had enough of the confusion, pain
and deception business which goes along with alcoholism. I'm one of
those.
It's been fifteen
years since I made the phone call to a friend I knew who was in recovery.
My final decision to call wasn't really an 'aha' phenomenon; it was
the result of an accumulation of the sorrowful and angry looks my kids would
give me, the utter demoralization of realizing I had no power over my
actions, and the stomach churning fear that my flying was at risk. I'm
sharing this for the ISA pilots, women airline pilots. My purpose
is twofold: to get in front of the 90% the fact that alcoholism is out
there, it is a disease, and perhaps to open your eyes to the thought of
helping someone whose drinking you noticed. And then to the
10%--perhaps to put another brick in their wall to eventually stop them from
drinking. I felt that way about my process. Each sorrowful look
from the kids, each calm word from a concerned friend--these were bricks in
my wall which eventually stopped me, causing me to make the call. I
have learned a lot, seen a lot of fellow pilots and fellow humans survive
major changes in their family structure, have watched them rejoice in their
new lives, and yes, suffer from relapses too--all of it. Kind of like
living is--only now it's clearer and sharper since alcohol isn't there to
blur the edges and soften the hard knocks. You'd be interested to also
know that pilots have the best recovery record of any. With this
disease under control in my life, I was able to finish my professional
flying career, retiring as a B727 Captain and I now fly a Cub and an Aztec
with my husband, a retired Delta Captain.
During this journey, I have found a meeting which has
helped me immensely and it's called Birds of a Feather. It's the same
batch of pilots who found themselves in the forefront those 26 years ago,
gathering together for their own benefit and to extend the hand to another
stumbling flyer. Up until 1999, Birds of a Feather had been headed up
by male pilots. After all, female airline pilots were few and far
between during those early days, and, of course, they didn't drink too much
alcohol. Ha! We females share the same percentage of alcoholism
among ourselves--approximately 10% of us are destined to be alcoholics.
That's just the way it is.
In 1999 Birds of a Feather had, as usual, its yearly
international conference. This one was held in Colorado Springs.
Since BOAF aspires to the same principals as AA, we do not have a president,
a tsar or a dictator; we just have a Secretary, know as "The Big Bird"
and an Alternate Secretary/Treasurer to take care of the details of the
yearly international convention and the other business which presents itself
to any organization. At the 1999 gathering they chose me as the
first female to serve in the number two spot of Alternate
Secretary/Treasurer and in 2001 to take the job of Big Bird. I teased
them upon acceptance there in Dallas, where the convention was held that
year, saying "Thank you for the trust you have invested in me. And
thank you for recognizing, after only a quarter of a century, that there is
also a woman in the cockpit."
To say I have been totally supported in this process by
the Birds is to put it much too lightly. The pilots in AA work with
each other in ways too numerous to count--from providing transport to
meetings, to listening to gripes and problems (real and imagined), to
rallying behind another pilot who may be having a particularly tough time
with his/her company or family or life itself. Good stuff.
Having made the decision to take the step into sobriety--and knowing that
decisions are the only things over which we have much control in life--we
are fortified and championed by our fallow pilots in recovery.
The organization has "moved" this year to assure the
continuation of Birds of a Feather. We have applied to get
federal registration for the names we use--Birds of a Feather, BOAF
International and The Bird Word, our quarterly publication.
We're stepping out, putting notices in publications such as ISA News,
ALPA Pilot and the like, about the fact that we exist and we can
help. Notices were put in publications in years past, and articles
were written, so this is not new ground. We're just reiterating the
good news: pilots can recover from alcoholism. Pilots can go back to
work after a diagnosis of alcoholism. Companies now support
the process, the FAA supports it, and ALPA has been a champion of it since
the beginning. We are making known our presence in the hopes that even
just one soul, thinking she might drink a bit too much, would make the phone
call which would set her on the path to recovery.
We have a website (www.boaf.org)
which gives the history in more detail than I have. We have links to
other help sites. And we always have our hands out to help in any way
for the pilot who needs help. Anonymity is strictly preserved, no
question about that. Thanks for the opportunity to write this.
Dotty W.
Birds of a Feather
Note: The author has given
permission to publish her phone numbers so that any pilot
(male or female) who wants
to visit about this article or other matters may call her at any time:
863-357-3220 or 863-447-1433
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